Allison was shy. At six years
old, that was the only word she knew to describe how she felt when strangers
looked at her, especially if they tried to get her attention. A big smile from
a stranger just made her look away and down, hoping her long blonde hair would
cover her blushing cheeks, as though not being able to see the stranger would somehow
make her invisible.
All her effort went into being
a good girl, one who attracted only positive attention from her parents.
Misbehaving brought the type of attention she hated, with one parent pointing
out to the other what she had done wrong or failed to do at all. Just the
mention of her failings was enough to make her want to cry or hide or both.
Allison hated it when adults
laughed at something she said. She would never forget how she felt when her mother laughed when she explained to the milkman that they needed more
milk because they "had an ulcer in the family." She didn’t think there was
anything funny about that. When the milkman joined her mother and laughed, she
couldn’t get away from them and into her bedroom to hide fast enough.
Her shyness made it all the
less understandable that she chose one day not only to tell a lie, but also to
get up in front of her entire class during show-and-tell to do so. Something
brought her to the point of overcoming her shyness to raise her hand in order
to be called on to share her news with her first grade classmates. She eagerly
walked to the front of the room and faced her classmates, pointed to her socks
and told them they were new. But they weren’t. She had already shared the news
of her new socks at show-and-tell before. She couldn’t remember if it was last
week, last month, or even longer ago. She just remembered that she had already
stood in front of the class for show-and-tell before. And she remembered that
she liked the attention. Or was it that she was jealous of the others who had
shared that they had new shoes, new dresses, new skirts, or whatever?
As soon as she had told her
news – her lie – it was just a little one, she thought, and no one would
actually remember that the socks she pointed to that day were the same as
before – she realized what she had done, lowered her eyes and head and made her
return trip to the desk more quickly.
And then she started to
think. She knew telling lies was
wrong. Should she tell her mom what she did? Did she have to
tell her mom? Would the teacher figure out she lied? Would her teacher tell her
mom?
What should she do?
After I completed my Day 2 exercise as a continuation of developing characters from this one, I realized I have a temporal disconnect in that I referred to the milkman in this piece and an up-and-coming medical devices company in Minneapolis in the Day 2 piece. Milkmen were a fixture of my childhood, but the Minneapolis medical devices companies such as Medtronic and Cardiac Pacemakers (now Boston Scientific) are a fixture of several decades later. If I want to tie this piece with Day 2 and Day 3, I'll have to work out these chronological inconsistencies.
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